1. A Time of White Uniforms


2. The Wandering Days of Youth
That trip to the Northwest was a rare occasion for class 10A3 to gather as a whole. It had been four years, and such a complete reunion was a rare event. We met at Thống Nhất Park, splitting up into pairs for the ride, as if it had been prearranged—Khiêm was the driver, and his passenger, of course, was Phương.
Thành cleared his throat and pulled out his phone to check Google Maps, giving directions as he went:
- The route goes through Phú Thọ to visit the Hùng Kings Temple, then up to Hà Giang to see the buckwheat flowers, and then we’ll swing by Lào Cai to flirt with the local girls, followed by Hòa Bình to eat river fish. It’s a four-day trip, alright?
The group screamed in excitement, racing off, while Khiêm wondered what made riding through the dust so exhilarating, though it was clear his joy came from having Phương by his side. He didn’t even know what they talked about on the ride, just that he felt on cloud nine. He was beginning to enjoy traveling, but with Phương by his side.
The group roamed through the Northwest, and the buckwheat flowers in Hà Giang were in full bloom, painting the hills with shades of white, pink, and purple. Khiêm swallowed hard, not because of the flowers, but because he was thinking about the steamed buckwheat cake he had just eaten at the morning market. 'If they made these here…'
They visited the Vương family mansion and climbed up the rocky peaks of Mèo Tai, taking photos and exploring all over Hà Giang.
That evening, the group arrived in Lào Cai, exhausted. They set up camp and lit a fire. Somehow, Khiêm drank half a liter of apple wine. His face turned bright red, and he grabbed Phương’s hand, shouting:
- Phương, I’ve liked you for a long time! Will you be my girlfriend?
Phương didn’t drink, but her face was just as flushed. After that, Khiêm couldn’t remember much, but when they returned to Hà Nội, they were officially a couple.
After that trip, two people with different personalities, whether by chance or fate, found themselves in love. Young couples who had never been in a relationship before often found themselves in silly conflicts. Phương would get upset with Khiêm for the most trivial reasons, like: 'Do I look good in this outfit?' - 'No, you look old.' Argument! 'Who were you talking to this morning?' - 'I was asking for directions!' Another argument! So many ridiculous things piled up. After three years, they fought a hundred times, but their quarrels never lasted long. They would reconcile in a few days or even hours. As autumn arrived, Phương asked Khiêm to go to the Royal Plaza for the Mid-Autumn Festival, but his reply was just two cold words: 'I’m busy.' Those words cut through Phương’s heart. When had Khiêm become so busy? She used to be the one with a packed schedule, yet she always found time for him, but now… Despite his hard work, Phương felt like he was drifting away from her. Khiêm seemed like a different person.
Wiping away her tears, Phương quickly typed a message: 'I’m tired. Let’s break up.' She expected a reply, but there was nothing—no calls, no messages, just silence from Khiêm. Three weeks passed after their breakup, and Khiêm buried himself in work to forget, but it wasn’t easy. One day, he decided to get out of the house. 'Maybe I should take a walk.' He jumped on his bike and headed to Hoan Kiem Lake, then wandered into the Old Quarter. Without realizing it, he found himself retracing the places he and Phương used to visit. He stopped, walking down each familiar street, observing the old walls and cobbled corners. Everywhere he looked, he saw a memory of Phương. The little noodle shop on Đồng Xuân Street, where Phương would ask him to stop for a late-night snack. The rich aroma of grilled pork at Hàng Mành, a dish she loved. Or the scent of coriander on her hands when she pulled him into the street food stalls on Đinh Liệt. All those memories flooded his mind. He couldn’t shake them, and he walked around in a daze.
Then he heard the familiar clacking sound of wooden sandals. He turned around to see an elderly couple walking hand in hand, the old man smiling fondly at the old woman. He heard him say:
- We’re old now, everything looks different! Hanoi wasn’t this beautiful when we were young, no cars, and I used to take you everywhere in the city. Now, it’s so crowded, and I’m too weak to walk around much. But I’ll always be here to hold your hand.
- Oh stop, at our age! Who cares about the cars, as long as you’re here with me, I’m happy!
Khiêm stayed silent, then hurried off. He ran out of the walking street and to the parking lot, panting. He quickly handed over his ticket to the attendant, saying in a rush:
- Please, give me the bike! Keep the change, I’m in a hurry!
Without waiting for the attendant’s confused stare, Khiêm jumped on the bike and sped away, heading straight for Phương’s house.


3. A Promise Without a Season
Cường put the pen into his schoolbag, then took it out again and neatly placed it in the drawer of his study desk. This drawer was reserved only for the special pens he had collected from class. After counting briefly, he realized he had about ten pens—ranging from ballpoints in every color to short, long, thick, and thin pencils of all kinds. Cường wondered why the owners of these pens never asked for them back, though if they did, he might not return them.
Cường took his bicycle out of the gate and started riding slowly to school, trying to time his arrival so that as soon as he locked his bike, the bell for class would ring. This habit had been with him for nearly two months now. At first, the fact that the class monitor was late caused some confusion, but after Cường explained that his electric bike was broken, and he had to ride a regular bike, his classmates became more understanding. After all, it was their final year, and there were only a few months left before graduation, so no one cared much about rules anymore. Some seniors even joked that the remaining school days were just for socializing and making memories. When Cường walked into the classroom, 99% of his classmates had already settled into their seats. He waved at them like a rock star greeting fans before heading to his desk, where his seat was always kept clean by Sương, his desk mate, who smiled at him as he sat down. This silent and thoughtful care from Sương was the underlying reason for Cường's recent tardiness. The first 15 minutes of class were usually lively, with Hưng Béo always being the loudest. Today, he proposed a new idea to the class. "Hey guys, want to come to my house this afternoon to 'study' for the exams? My neighbor’s guava tree has loads of ripe fruit!" "Nah, let’s go to Mai’s house and fish instead, her house is right by the river," another classmate suggested. "No way, you’ll never catch any fish there!" Hưng Béo retorted. "Then we can fish in her pond, she has a small pond with lots of fish." And that’s how the 12th-grade class of 12 Sinh spent their time when the teacher wasn’t around—talking about fruit, fishing, and birds instead of studying. Cường, as the class monitor, had become more laid-back, and this made the class even livelier than before. When the 15 minutes passed, the lesson began. Cường opened his bag to find a pen, and Sương looked over at him with a sigh. She had two pens on the desk, one red and one blue. The blue pen was for taking notes, and the red one was used for highlighting key points. Cường reached out for the blue pen, but Sương quickly grabbed it. So, today, Cường would have to use the red pen. If the teacher saw it, he would probably comment, but since he had forgotten his pens at home, he had no choice. Lately, Cường’s mood had been more distracted than usual. Once a strict and hot-headed class monitor, he had recently become unusually calm and gentle. During class, he often glanced over at Sương, who seemed to have become even more beautiful. He kept wondering if he was the only one who noticed it or if the entire class felt the same way. He wanted to ask someone if his feelings were correct, but he was too shy to admit he liked Sương. The truth was, he wasn’t too worried about the rest of the class knowing; he just didn’t want Sương to find out. Sương had been the class monitor before him. She was very intelligent and had the highest score when they entered high school, so she had been chosen to be the class leader. However, she was shy and not very experienced, so after only one semester, the position was passed on to Cường. Up until then, he had never really paid much attention to Sương, even though she was very smart. There was even a time when Cường envied her because of how much the teachers favored her. But in the 12th grade, that sense of rivalry faded, as Sương had become more modest and reserved. After she started sitting next to him, Cường felt something strange in his heart—both happy and uneasy. He was glad because he could sneak glances at her notes, but at the same time, he still didn’t quite like her in a way that made him uneasy. Every day, Cường focused only on cleaning his own desk. Sometimes, he even wiped down Sương's side of the desk too. Despite sitting next to her for a month, Cường never spoke a word to her. Sương often arrived late to school, but when she came early, she would always clean both desks. Cường was surprised and even touched by this, but it made him feel embarrassed. When Cường came early, he would wipe down the desks, but he was afraid the class would start gossiping about him. His classmates were always paying attention to him, and if they found out he had feelings for a girl, they would create all kinds of stories. But seeing Sương care for him made him feel small and unworthy as a class monitor. This is why he started arriving late—an idea he had to come up with after a lot of thinking. One day, after staying up late watching soccer with his father, Cường woke up late. That day, he was late for class and ended up missing the surprise 15-minute History quiz. Cường searched his bag frantically but couldn’t find his favorite pen anywhere. By the time he looked up, most of the class had already started writing. He was stuck—he couldn’t remember the details of the Battle of Dien Bien Phu, and he couldn’t even find a pen to write with. Just as he was about to give up, a beautiful hand placed a black pen in front of him. Cường looked up to see Sương smiling. She motioned for him to start writing. Cường mouthed a quick thank you before he began scribbling down his answers. Sương didn’t try to cover her paper, as if she knew exactly what was going on. Thanks to her intelligence, Cường managed to recall the key points and finished his quiz, though it was less than perfect. That day, Cường accidentally took Sương’s pen home. He didn’t mean to; he just forgot to return it. He placed the pen in his desk drawer and intended to bring it back the next day, but he forgot. Sương never asked for it back, so Cường just kept it, often holding it when he missed her. He couldn’t help but wonder if she knew. Later, whenever his pen ran out of ink, Cường would look at Sương and silently ask if he could borrow her pen. Sương always agreed. She didn’t seem to mind that he kept forgetting his pens. Cường wasn’t particularly bad at school, and though he had been the subject of some girl’s affections in the past, his relationships never lasted. He was too cold and distant, which led to them falling apart quickly. But with Sương, it was different. His feelings for her had become clear to everyone else, including his best friend Hùng Béo. One Saturday morning, Cường arrived at school early, hoping to see Sương, but she wasn’t there. Hùng Béo, who lived near Sương, noticed Cường waiting and decided to tease him. Hùng Béo told him that Sương had fallen from a tree and was in a bad condition. He said that her family didn’t realize until evening. Cường panicked, wondering what had happened, and rushed to check if it was true. Later, he found out it was a complete lie. Sương had just been sick with stomach pain and had stayed home. Hùng Béo had tricked him into thinking something much more dramatic was going on. Still, Cường couldn’t stop worrying. He secretly went to Sương’s house, bringing flowers, but when he arrived, he found out that she had just been resting. The next day at school, everything came out in the open, and the whole class was buzzing about Cường and Sương’s rumored relationship. Cường felt embarrassed, but he didn’t know how to address it. Everyone assumed that their silent responses meant they were in love. Time passed quickly, and soon the graduation exams were approaching. Cường, having thought about it long and hard, decided he would confess to Sương after graduation. But just before the exams, news came that Sương was leaving for Australia to live with her relatives. Cường was devastated. He regretted not confessing his feelings sooner, but now it was too late. He tried to contact Sương, but she had already left. For the first time, Cường realized what it meant to truly love someone. On the day of Sương’s departure, Cường sat alone, wondering what could have been. They exchanged a few final messages, promising to remember each other, but deep down, Cường knew this would be the end. The love he had just found was now slipping away.

4. We Are Destined to Meet


5. You fool! I just need you by my side
Mai peeked her head into the familiar clothing store on the usual street. She looked around with a beaming, joyful expression, grinning as she greeted the store owner loudly. But her excitement didn’t last long; her face quickly fell when the owner cheerfully responded:
- There are still many styles, dear! I haven’t seen you in a while, so I sold them to someone else.
- Oh... Well, it’s fine. Goodbye, Auntie!
Mai sighed and stepped out, the cold air biting at her skin. Despite her mother having bundled her up in warm clothes, scarves, and a hat before leaving, she still felt the chill and a sense of emptiness. She muttered to herself, “In the end, I’m still just a Scarecrow…”
Dũng was handsome, tall... very tall, smart... extremely smart, and “hot”... incredibly “hot”. Mai, on the other hand, was so average that it was almost painfully average. She wasn’t pretty, her grades were merely middle-of-the-road, and to top it off, she had earned the nickname “cold girl” for being distant in class. Yet, somehow, she and Dũng ended up together? It was strange, especially those early days in high school... The teacher assigned Mai to sit next to Dũng, a spot that many girls in the class envied, but Mai couldn’t feel more uncomfortable. During breaks, she longed for quiet but was always interrupted by the “hot girls” who would come chat with the guy sitting next to her. She never understood what kind of conversations Dũng had with them, and when she tried eavesdropping, it only made her want to burst out laughing. Then there was the time the teacher returned their math tests at the beginning of the year (the subject Mai hated the most). Dũng scored a perfect 10 while Mai only got a 4. She was already feeling upset and embarrassed, but Dũng, for some reason, took her paper, scolded her for being sloppy, and criticized her presentation. Mai was furious, so the next day, she asked the teacher to switch seats, only for Dũng to swoop in and say, “Please, don’t move her seat. I’ll help her improve. I’m sure her score next time will be at least 8.” The teacher agreed, and Mai shot Dũng a glare while he smiled, as though mocking her. Mai soon found herself caught in a grueling routine that felt like a new form of torture. Sure, Dũng had promised to help her improve in class, but he took it further, trying to micromanage even her daily habits, turning her life upside down. At 5 AM, her phone would ring incessantly to wake her up for a morning run, and if Mai ever tried to ignore it by turning off her phone, Dũng would come knocking at her door. After dragging her out for a workout, Dũng had even drawn up a strict schedule for her, like a personal caretaker. She had to wait for him at the bus stop on the way to school (which was illogical—most of the time, it was Dũng waiting for her). Her meals were scheduled—breakfast, lunch, and dinner—she couldn’t go out on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays because Dũng needed to tutor her, and so on... The regimen was tough, but it did improve her grades steadily. Any score below 7 would result in a scolding from Dũng, who would go on to pick apart her every mistake. It was now the final year of school, and Dũng had become even stricter, but his discipline had turned her habits into something far more consistent. She felt healthier, more energetic, and somehow more in love... with Dũng. Their relationship became one of the most unexpected and mismatched pairs—through all the “torturous” moments. Being with Dũng made Mai feel warm, but it also left her feeling insecure and pressured. Dũng was so much better than her, yet he never once complimented her, even though she tried so hard. Instead, he continued to call her the “Scarecrow,” making her feel unattractive. People say that when you're in love, you find the other person the most beautiful, but Mai thought Dũng was handsome—why didn’t he see her as beautiful? Furthermore, didn’t history books say puppet kings were useless rulers with no real power? Was Mai really that useless and clueless? It was bitterly cold that winter! Her mom had bought her a few coats, but none were stylish. Her family wasn’t wealthy, so her clothes were always quite ordinary. Was that why Dũng mocked her for being a Scarecrow? She wanted a warm coat like her classmate Trang’s—a stylish coat that reached her knees and made Trang look like a lovely doll. Trang also liked Dũng... Mai knew that and feared that Dũng might prefer the Doll to the Scarecrow. “Trang looks really pretty in that coat, doesn’t she, Dũng?” Mai blurted out as they were walking home. Dũng casually replied. “Yeah, she looks like a Doll, nothing like you, the Scarecrow.” “Hey!” Mai snapped. “Then why do you hang out with the Scarecrow? Why not be friends with the Doll instead?” “Oh, you don’t know? I’m like a field of corn that needs the Scarecrow to protect it from the pretty girls trying to steal my attention. The Doll is already beautiful and can’t help me with that,” Dũng teased. “Hmph! You jerk! No pretty girl would want to be around you. Only I feel sorry for you, so I stick with you. And I’m not going to be a Scarecrow anymore, I’ll show you I can be a Doll!” The challenge was set three weeks ago, and the next day, Mai searched every store for a coat like the Doll’s. She found a white one at a shop that was even more beautiful than Trang’s. Determined to buy it, she found it was too expensive for her budget—700K. She begged her mom for 200K, adding her savings, but still fell short by 300K. Luckily, Mai found a tutoring job for a 6th grader in English, and after two weeks of hard work, she would have enough to buy the coat. Mai missed a few meetups and study sessions with Dũng to keep her tutoring job a secret, and the money started adding up. She often passed by the store, admiring the coat and feeling relieved that the mannequin was still wearing it. With the money ready, Mai had even warned the shopkeeper: “Please don’t sell this to anyone else. I’ll buy it for sure!” But today, on Monday afternoon, she broke the rules of her “caretaker,” happily heading to the shop to buy the dream coat, turning off her phone to avoid being scolded by Dũng. When she got there, however, the coat was already gone. In the end, she was still just a Scarecrow. At 5:00 PM, Mai had ridden her bike for a long while, stopping to admire the view. The wind from the river chilled her to the bone. It was just a coat, yet it made her feel so down. Under the Long Biên Bridge was a large field of corn, and in the beautiful scenery, there were scarecrows—ugly, lifeless figures. She was so frustrated. Why did Scarecrows have to look so messy and ugly? After a moment, she checked her phone—23 missed calls from “The Corn Field.” “Why did you turn off your phone? Who said you could go off on your own without me?” Dũng’s voice rang out angrily over the phone. Hearing his scolding, Mai couldn’t hold back her tears. “I... I’m sorry... I tried... But I’m still just a Scarecrow. I can’t be a Doll.” “You’re so silly! I need you by my side, not some Doll!” Dũng replied. “Where are you now?” “In a place full of Scarecrows like me...” Mai sniffled. Dũng hurriedly rode his bike, ignoring the cold wind that hit his face. The Long Biên Bridge looked even more beautiful now, as Dũng knew that his Scarecrow friend was standing there, looking down at the corn fields and lost in thought. “You silly Scarecrow!” “Hey! Don’t call me that anymore! I hate it!” Mai snapped, wiping her tears. Dũng kept teasing her, making Mai even angrier. “What’s wrong with that? You’re the Scarecrow, after all...” He shivered and rubbed his hands together. “It’s so cold, isn’t it?” Mai was flustered. Not knowing what to do, she removed her gloves and wrapped them around Dũng’s hands. Suddenly, Dũng pulled her into a tight hug, so tight that Mai felt an overwhelming warmth. “My silly Scarecrow! I’m just an ordinary farmer, but what I need from you is to protect my love and everything I’ve built. A beautiful Doll couldn’t help me do that. Do you understand now?”

6. Season of Love
As the final purple Lagerstroemia flowers lingered on the branches, I officially entered my senior year. With the rush of extra classes, tough assignments, and endless thoughts about the future, I couldn’t shake my habit of spending hours in quiet contemplation, lost in the beauty of the deep purple blossoms. The color often stayed in my mind, bittersweet—so lovely, yet heavy with the sadness of farewell. I tried to peer deeper, to understand what it was about those delicate petals that made people reflect so intensely, but no matter how many times I held one in my hands, all I could see was the silent purple hue.
The purple carried me through the seasons of school, holding unspoken emotions and memories of youth’s fleeting moments.
One day, as I stood quietly beneath the Lagerstroemia tree, eyes locked on the tiny blossoms, he passed by like a soft breeze. I didn’t realize how long he had been standing behind me, but as he walked by, he reached up, plucked a small piece of purple from the tree, and gently placed it in my palm. Without a word, he winked, smiled, and continued walking, leaving me to stand there, lost in thought, with the flower nestled in my hand.
I chose a small, charming notebook to preserve that flower—a tiny piece of my final days as a student.
In our last year, we unexpectedly got a new homeroom teacher, and we were allowed to choose our own seats. I selected a spot near the window, where I could gaze out at the purple flowers and glimpse a familiar face in the building across the way. Unfortunately, it seemed that my ideal seat had already been claimed.
- Could you give me this seat?
I asked Huy, my classmate, with a pleading look. He smiled:
- What for? To watch some handsome guy in the class across?
- Oh, no. I just...
I stuttered, unsure how to explain myself. My face flushed red, making me even more embarrassed.
- Here. A little act of chivalry for the final year.
Huy shifted over with a grin. Sometimes, I didn’t understand why his smile drew so much attention. Of course, it wasn’t me who was captivated, but all the dreamy girls in the class and the school. They all said Huy had a smile that could light up a room, and “charisma,” too. He sat beside me, but I hardly noticed, my gaze always drawn outside to the purple flowers and the window framing the classroom across. Those things were enough to keep me fixated for the entire lesson.
Sometimes, modern life makes us forget old loves. The hustle and bustle of life might make us better in some ways, but it also takes away from us in others. Amid the rush, I still hold on to my private reflections, like a corner of my soul that cannot be dulled by the march of time. I think youth should be like that—at least so that this vast world still has spaces reserved for feelings.
Perhaps I’m old-fashioned, but every now and then, I like to watch him and quietly recite a few lines from Đỗ Trung Quân’s poem:
"My first love was something
Like a light rain outside the classroom
It was the white uniform, a dreamy sleep
It was the poem that lingered in my bag
Between breaks, it would come and go."
2. Winter
Drip...drip... The rain...
Another rainstorm arrived, just like the daily routine of winter—persistent and cold. Through the window, I could still see him, studying intently. What caught my attention was his scholar-like appearance, with just a hint of a bookworm. It was different from the other boys in school. He wasn’t overly handsome, didn’t have the “rich kid” vibe, and wasn’t particularly tall, but I found myself enchanted by his face, even through the heavy rain. The final winter at high school seemed colder, and the rain fell harder than before.
Sometimes, I liked to plug in my headphones, letting the soft lyrics flow through my ears, while my eyes stayed focused on him.
"Sometimes I watch the clock hands turn
I wonder about the meaning of each fleeting moment
If that day had been at a different time
Would we have seen each other?"
Suddenly, one of my earbuds was pulled out, and Huy placed it in his ear.
- You’re always listening to this song. Don’t you get tired of it?
I smiled:
- When something becomes a habit, you end up liking it more than getting bored with it.
The final volleyball games to celebrate November 20th. His class played against mine. Of course, I went to watch, but I wasn’t sure who to cheer for. I clearly stood with my class, but my eyes were only on him. His skilled, precise moves seemed to mesmerize me. He scored every time, no matter his position. My friend beside me was surprised and asked:
- Hey, who are you cheering for?
I hesitated:
- Uh, of course, I’m cheering for my class.
My friend didn’t know, he didn’t know, and no one else knew that I went to every game he played—whether it was the qualifiers, the semifinals, or the finals. I always showed up, standing off to the side, just enough to see him. Sometimes, happiness is found in the small, repeated moments. What matters is whether we notice them. I cherished the final days under this school roof, the last moments I could secretly watch him, those small joys and quiet wishes I sent with my gaze.
His team won, but perhaps I was the only one in the opposing class who was happy. I stepped out of the gym, and the rain poured down. I had intended to get drenched like usual, walking home through the downpour, but just as I was about to step off the field, an umbrella appeared over my head, held by someone else’s hand.
- You...
- Let’s share it. I’m going the same way as you.
Am I dreaming? He was standing beside me, so close, so close... A sweet warmth spread through me, and suddenly, I felt incredibly warm.


7. May Does Not Stay


8. Summer Memories
"Hey, are you asleep?"
A boy pressed his face close to mine, and by instinct, I pulled back and stammered, "Who... who are you?"
"I'm the one sitting behind you. How could you be so oblivious?" he sighed dramatically.
I nodded sheepishly. In class, I never made friends, just quietly went to school and quietly went home. My only concern was my textbooks and upcoming exams.
"Hey, you don't even remember my name?" He placed his hands on the desk, staring at me.
I scratched my head, smiling awkwardly. "So, what do you need?"
"Come to the canteen with me."
Before I could react, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me along. We had been classmates for almost three years, yet I didn't even know his name until he mentioned it, "It's Hải Nguyên," and I finally smiled sheepishly in apology. That afternoon, our class had only two extracurricular periods, and after that, we were free to either go home or join a dance or sports club. I wasn’t interested in either, and didn’t want to go home in the blazing sun, so I stayed in class, and Hải Nguyên dragged me to the canteen. It was the first time he treated me to bubble tea. That day, we talked about many things, but now, I’ve forgotten it all.
Hải Nguyên asked me to tutor him in English since I was good at it. It wasn't difficult, so I agreed. During our study sessions, I remember he once said he wanted to attend university in the same city as me, but when I asked him about it, he fell silent.
After some time, I asked him the question that had been on my mind.
"Why did you invite me for bubble tea that day?"
He answered immediately, "Because I noticed you always buy bubble tea after class, so I thought you must really like it."
But in your heart, did you truly want to have bubble tea with me? I didn’t ask him this.
The summer breeze swept through the high mountains, over the sea, and through tall buildings. The breeze passed through my room, leaving a refreshing coolness behind.
At 10 PM, I was studying for my upcoming exam, listening to the radio.
As on most other nights, we met again on the radio waves. Tell me your story. Have you ever missed an appointment with someone you like?
Amid the radio host’s voice, a message from Hải Nguyên popped up.
"There’s too much vocabulary, I’m really exhausted."
"Do you even want to pass the exam?"
"I’m studying more. Don’t stay up too late, okay? Sleep well!"
I screenshot that message as a memento.
He told me to sleep early, but he stayed up until 1 or 2 AM. The beep of my phone woke me up.
"I’ll bring you breakfast tomorrow, cheese bread and bubble tea!"
The next morning, Hải Nguyên arrived late to class. He sneaked in through the back door at 7:30, eyes red and tired. He handed me breakfast, but how did he know my favorite food was cheese bread? I kept that question to myself and didn’t ask him. Maybe he was late just to bring me breakfast?
We spent a lot of time together—at school, in study sessions, and when I tutored him in English.
The breeze blew through the empty alley, still unable to catch up to the lingering shadow of the person who had passed.
On the final exam day, Hải Nguyên had asked to meet me at a small street behind the school, but he forgot. At that moment, I thought maybe he was exhausted after the exams and had forgotten about our meeting. I didn’t mind and understood because there was still plenty of time ahead.
At 11:45 PM, he sent me a voice recording saying, "Goodnight," and I played it every night. It felt like hearing him wish me goodnight in person.
I never knew what he was truly thinking—whether he was sincere or just pretending. But over the past time, everything he did for me touched me deeply. My heart beat out of sync for him. It felt like chewing a sweet candy in my mouth.
***
At 5:30 PM, the last lesson.
"Do you believe that someone in this world will like you no matter how many flaws you have, when you’re alone in a cold place, soaked in rain, or drowning in sorrow? You have to be strong to overcome the chaos of this world."
Hải Nguyên always said things like that.
Finally, we had a proper date before stepping into the future.
At 3 PM on Sunday, I arrived at the meeting spot. By coincidence, we were both wearing the same colored shirts. I asked him where we were going, and he pulled out a small wooden box from his pocket and said it was a birthday gift for me.
"How did you know it was my birthday?" I asked, receiving the gift with confusion.
"I... I just pay attention to these things," he smiled casually.
That day, we didn’t go anywhere; we just sat by the fountain, eating ice cream. Turns out, the real reason he invited me was just to wish me a happy birthday.
Hải Nguyên wasn’t the most outstanding student in class, nor was he handsome enough for girls to write love letters, but wherever he went, people always turned their heads to look because he was a kind-hearted guy, full of emotions, with a passionate heart. I don’t know when I started thinking about him, learning more about him. Hải Nguyên—he was like a stubborn child, a flame that ignited hope, lighting up the willpower, only to burn out and fall asleep.
My life didn’t feel so dull anymore; it was filled with some joy and vitality, a little frustration and happiness. All these emotions combined to make my world more interesting and colorful.
But summer was short, and it was my fault that I didn’t learn how to be brave enough to prevent regrets from becoming regrets, so now, you and I are separated.
On graduation day, I didn’t see Hải Nguyên anywhere. I called him, but the line was always busy. When I stepped down from the stage, the class leader handed me a letter saying it was from Hải Nguyên. It was a letter he had written.
"By the time you open this letter, I’ll be on a plane. I’m sorry for leaving suddenly without saying anything. I was afraid that if I said it then, it would distract you. So, I decided to wait until after the graduation exams to tell you. My family and I are moving to another country to live and study. This was decided when I was 16, at the end of my 10th grade, but I stayed for you and asked my parents to let me stay for three more years to study with you. I’ve always paid attention to the girl sitting in front of me. She was rather quiet. Many times I wanted to talk to her, but it felt like there was an invisible barrier around her that kept me away, or maybe I just lacked courage. Days passed. The day of parting was near, yet I never said a word to her. I wanted to create many beautiful memories with you before I left here. I’ve done it, haven’t I? Sometimes, when I think back on those joyful times, I feel happy, but sometimes, I also feel disappointed. Life has its ups and downs, good people and bad people, rain in the early morning or warm sunshine at sunset... all these make up our lives. Remember, you have to be strong to get through the chaos of this world. I’m not sure when I’ll be back. So, thank you for everything, both the good and the not-so-good. Thank you for being here with me all these years. If we ever meet again, I hope we’ll both wear the same blue uniform from those days, walk down to the canteen, and review old lessons together. I’m so glad you spent time with me. Actually, from the first time I met you, I felt something special. The luckiest part was that the person you liked also liked you back. Goodbye."
The sunlight outside the window was blinding, and the letter in my hand fluttered gently in the breeze. Did our youth pass by with just one farewell? No, it didn’t. Even if we never meet again, if we remain as we were back then—soft but full of passion—then, no matter the storm or the scorching sun, I believe that one day we will create many more miracles together and turn that youthful time into the most beautiful memory.


9. The Most Beautiful Spring


10. First Love
In high school, she sat next to me. Beautiful like a delicate carnation. As for me, no need to describe, rather dull.
She was totally unique, always smiling like the morning sun, the center of attention in class. I, however, didn’t need any description: slow, quiet, and only interested in video games – the type of person who could be left alone either way.
We shared a desk, and unlike others, she didn’t bother with dividing lines of chalk: I was simple, I let her have whatever she wanted, always accepting. She loved it, smiling like the sun.
In the second half of 11th grade, I became her messenger, delivering letters back and forth, her collection of letters during that period could have made up a small novel. I would quietly hand them to her, she would read them, smiling and showing off her perfect teeth, sometimes passing a letter to me with a gleam in her eyes.
One day, she asked: "Hey, do you think I look good?"
"Good?" – I was still buried in my book.
"You think I look good but you don't even look up?" – She pouted.
"I see you every day, nothing has changed." – I closed my book.
"Have you ever really noticed me?" – She blinked her eyes.
"Sometimes" – I smiled.
"In what way?"
"I make sure you're hiding your answers well during tests, you always sit at the corner of the desk, it's easier for the teachers to catch you." – I grinned, showing my teeth.
"You're so boring, I won't talk to you anymore." – She stuck out her lips.
"Alright then, here’s a letter for you." – I handed her the letter and casually gave her a piece of chocolate.
"Oh, where did this come from? Is it a Valentine’s gift?" – Her eyes sparkled.
"My dad was on a business trip and brought it back. He left it in the fridge, so we might as well eat it together before it goes to waste. Now, let’s switch seats for the test." – I was being honest.
"You’re crazy!" – She slapped me on the back. "It’s Valentine’s Day! Giving chocolate means you have feelings for someone!"
"I see! That’s why those guys were so insistent on handing me their letters today. They must have thought I was giving it to you as a love token." – I stretched out my hand in front of her.
"You’re so weird, I ate it already. Consider it an acceptance!" – She blushed and quickly ran off like a gust of wind.
"Oh, so it turns out girls can be won over with just chocolate or any snack, that’s easy!" – I thought to myself, while preparing for the test and making sure my seatmate was comfortable.
After school, I was getting my bike ready to head home when I saw the students from all grades laughing and chatting. Suddenly, I heard her call: "Hey, can you give me a ride home?"
"Where’s your motorbike, confiscated?" – I was surprised.
"The tire burst this morning, so my dad gave me a ride to school." – She looked at me.
"But you have plenty of guys waiting to offer you a ride. You can just get in one of their cars. Taking the bike is not much faster."
"Fine, forget it!" – She turned to leave.
"Wait, I’ll give you a ride. Why are you being so difficult today?" – I hurried after her with my old, rusty bike.
She kept walking at a steady pace, and at first, I tried riding alongside her, but the bike was faster than her pace, so I ended up walking alongside. Looking back at that moment, it’s hard to imagine in today’s world—since we’re always either driving cars or riding motorcycles. I thought about how rare it is now. I kept walking for a while, and then she turned around and jumped on the bike. "Let’s go, you fool, let’s hang out!"
We rode through the streets, the February air was cold and biting, passing by the Hoan Kiem Lake. The wind blew, and she pulled closer to me. She then asked: "Are you cold?"
"No, I’m fine, just exercising, why would I be cold?" – I replied casually.
"Oh, you’re such an idiot." – She sighed.
I pulled over by the sidewalk, took off my jacket, and handed it to her. "Here, put this on, I’m fine. But seriously, why do you always dress like that in this weather? Just wear it for now, it won’t smell, I washed it recently." – She smiled and put it on, saying, "This is warm."
As I pedaled, she chatted endlessly behind me, and although the road seemed long, we eventually arrived at her house. "Give me my jacket back before you go."
"You said you weren’t cold." – She stared at me intensely. Her gaze made me feel a strange chill down my spine.
"There’s no one to give a ride to now, so I must be cold." – I lowered my head, avoiding her gaze.
"I’m keeping it today. You’ll get it back tomorrow when you pick me up." – She smiled, and I had never seen her look more beautiful.
"What? Fine, I’ll pick you up tomorrow, don’t worry, I’ll get up early. We’ll see each other then." – I agreed quickly.
"Wait, hold on, give me your hand." – She laughed.
I stretched out my hand, and she put a piece of chocolate in my palm. "Eat it in front of me."
"I haven’t eaten yet, why force me to eat this now? I’ll eat it later when I get home." – I frowned.
"No, eat it now, in front of me, or else you won’t leave!" – She said, almost on the verge of tears.
"What’s wrong with you?" – I was startled.
"Eat it now, before you go. No exceptions!" – She demanded.
I unwrapped it and ate it, relieved since I was very hungry. "Mmm, delicious. Alright, I’m going now. Tomorrow, as promised, I’ll pick you up. Don’t forget your jacket."
"Not so fast, this is for you." – She pulled out a book from her bag.
"Wow, thanks, I should’ve been more considerate and taken you home more often. Now I get to eat and take something with me! Thanks!" – I happily held the book in my hands.
Suddenly, she quickly leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. I froze, and my whole body felt like it was shocked with electricity. She ran into the house, leaving me stunned for a moment. I touched my lips as if trying to figure out what had just happened. As I walked home, I couldn’t understand anything that had just occurred. That night, before going to sleep, I opened the book she gave me and found a letter inside. I unfolded it and read:
"You’re crazy! You’re the most foolish person I’ve ever met. I love you. Thank you for always looking after me. Thank you for carrying my bag, buying me bread at recess, pushing my bike during extra classes, delivering my letters, copying my homework, and even taking the blame for me. I don’t know where I’d be without you by my side, but I do know I’d be sad if you weren’t in my life. I love you. Happy Valentine’s Day. P.S. Don’t be late to pick me up tomorrow."
My heart raced as I read her words. That whole night, I couldn’t sleep, tossing and turning, the clock mocking me as the seconds ticked away. I had never waited for the morning to come faster. At 6 AM, I was already at her door, forgetting about the two beeps before hanging up. I waited 45 minutes until I saw her step out. She had never looked more beautiful. She smiled, jumped on my bike, and said: "Let’s go!" We rode to Hoan Kiem Lake, the early morning cold biting us. She asked:
"Are you cold?"
"Yeah, today’s colder than yesterday, not sure why." – I said, my teeth chattering from the cold.
"I knew it! You’re such an idiot!" – She hugged me tightly from behind, her warmth surrounding me. The first hug of my life. My first love…


